| | Current Music: | ted leo+the pharmacists- "dirty old town" | | Time: | 07:40 pm |
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| i started this journal when i was 15(16?). it is now a ripe old age and has begun to reek of lost high school nostalgia and other memories best not recalled.
but you should all go to my space
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| i could stumble in the shadows again
but these days i dare not stray from the moonlit path
because the sun will rise in time
...won't it?
i never would have wandered this far if i didn't think
there was somewhere worth going. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | new pornographers- "the jessica numbers" | | Time: | 11:56 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/opiummmm/foxies/happy.gif) mellow |
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| //i'm feeling less and less psychedelic these days
&for once its not a bad thing
i'm going towards american roots
sincerity is key, and i've grown tired of the ostentatious
//things are all starting to fall in to place(in my head)
autmun=motivation | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Your Kissing Purity Score: 34% Pure | 
You're not one to kiss and tell...
But word is, you kiss pretty well. |
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| i can go anywhere
i just can't do anything.
//funds depleted all too quickly. i needed a new brake hose for my car, which set me back quite a bit (too much if you ask me).
i wouldn't have found out i needed a new brake hose if i hadn't gotten my car stuck.
it was one those days, you know.
and ironically enough, i was going to drop off my car insurance check.
i can never seem to find the parking lot for the state farm building, its behind another building off this little side street. i was backing up onto this street, which was elevated off of this parking lot. i couldn't see the wall from where i was sitting, so when i turned, i went right over the ledge. my left front tire was completely off the ground.
...now, i don't know anything about cars, so naturally when something unexpected goes wrong with the vehical while i'm driving, i burst in to tears.
"you've got to be fucking kidding me!!" i screamed
i was all tears and snot as i called my dad at work.
then i called AAA.
but a bunch of burly men from neighboring houses came to my aid! they jacked my car up, and with a ramp constructed out of planks of wood, bricks, cinder blocks, and a small child stearing, they manged to push my car back on to the street. they found that the fall didn't damage my car, but that a short stop had cracked my front right brake hose. so they towed my car and i got cheated by the scummy garage they took it to. my dad went in there and talked the price down, but i was still charged well over the estimate.
and, this is all true.
//so, who would have ever thought i'd have what is starting to resemble a functioning, meaningful non-sexual relationship with jared...
...and still have no idea where tom is?
(i haven't spoken to him in almost 3 months)
life is fucking strange. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | happiness is a warm gun | | Time: | 11:58 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/opiummmm/foxies/sad.gif) sleepy |
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| hot snakes disband?!
tragic.
but i'm on fire, i must say.
so for convenience sake, we'll do a little + & -
++got $$PAID$$
+went to tucker's for the weekend
-didn't get to NYC (because i don't want to get fired for missing a day in my first 2 weeks, can you blame me?)
-didn't see yo la tengo
-or mr. malkmus
+went to a party
+got a nice tan (no burns!)
+went to Trash American Style, bought a nice bracelet for A DOLLAR +some other things
oh yeah, hung out with jared, and he was sweet to my sharp tongue for once.
there was no funny business (but there was something, i'm just not going there again). it was a +.
...and coming home early was for the best. i talked to a boy i had a crush on in high school(should i say his name?) who i haven't seen in over a year. so much has changed since then! i tried my best to be smooth, but i was glad it was dark out, because i was so nervous i was shaking. he wanted to talk to me, and i felt a bit of a flirtatious repore going. i wanted to give him my number but i didn't have my cell phone.
i hope i see him again this summer.
i'm going to hit a sack. perhaps even the sack.
did that sound bad? that sounded bad.
...i'm going to bed.
zzzzz | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| ...and when you believe they call it rock and roll
//life.in.gear
full-time job starts on the 20th, which means i get paid on july 1st, which means i'm going to motherfucking NYC on the 4th, and oh yeah while i'm there i plan on seeing yo la tengo and mr. stephen malkus
you're all jealous, i know.
unless of course you'll be there too
in which case, call me.
...why am i indoors? | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | my mathematical mind | | Time: | 02:16 am | | Current Mood: | drained |
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| | i'm gonna stop riding the breaks. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | olivia tremor control- "california demise" | | Time: | 07:39 pm |
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|  | You scored as Cultural Creative. Cultural Creatives are probably the newest group to enter this realm. You are a modern thinker who tends to shy away from organized religion but still feels as if there is something greater than ourselves. You are very spiritual, even if you are not religious. Life has a meaning outside of the rational.
Cultural Creative | | 88% | Idealist | | 81% | Postmodernist | | 75% | Existentialist | | 69% | Romanticist | | 56% | Materialist | | 50% | Modernist | | 44% | Fundamentalist | | 44% | </td>
What is Your World View?
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sweet, dude.
i'm going to maine this weekend. roxanne will be taking her first road trip!
12 fucking hours, round trip.
& i have take the ride back all by my lonesome.
this means:
chain-smoking
music ADD
and lots of talking to myself. maybe i should bring a tape recorder... | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | television- "see no evil" | | Time: | 11:37 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/opiummmm/foxies/okay.gif) lazy |
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| i had a dream the other night that the comedian David Cross was stalking me.
which is scary, because not only is he not very attractive, he's not particularly funny either.
but anyways...
erin and i went to target this evening, and she bought lipgloss and condoms with a gift certificate.
she's an uppity little tart.
we then went to the park and drank champagne.
we didn't get nearly as drunk as we wanted to.
and thats about it.
fin. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | smokey robinson- "whats so good about good bye" | | Time: | 01:55 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/opiummmm/foxies/awake.gif) awake |
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Isis
Indeed, you are 75% erudite, 83% sensual, 54% martial, and 54% saturnine. |
This Egyptian supreme Goddess is certainly the most influential deity on subsequent cultures. She was the ideal figure of womanhood, usually compared with the Greek Goddess Demeter or her Roman version, Ceres.
Isis was one element of a Holy Trinity, the remaining two figures being her brother and husband Osiris and their heroic son Horus. She was the Goddess of Magic for her brilliance, as well as the Goddess of Love because of her tenacious devotion.
She is often shown with wings, curving to caress coffins and sarcophagi of many a king. In certain papyri she is shown with her falcon wing headdress, covering her ears. One of her sacred symbols is the sistrum, a musical instrument that was believed to ward off evil spirits. Isis' sistrum was carved bearing the image of a cat and was representative of the Moon.
Isis was the High Priestess and an omnipotent magician as well as the only being ever to discover the secret name of Ra. She invariably carries the ankh, the symbol for eternal life. Her name is, by the rules of numerology, adding up to the number “2” and she just so happens to be depicted on the tarot card “Key 2 – The High Priestess”. |
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My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:
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You scored higher than 57% on erudite |
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You scored higher than 73% on sensual |
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You scored higher than 42% on martial |
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You scored higher than 42% on saturnine |
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delicious! | | comments: Leave a comment |
| one of those days.
one of those days where i can't move from my bed because if i do i'm pretty sure all the fog & nonsense i'm desperately trying to sort out in my head will spill from my ears & on to the floor & fall through the cracks & i'll never get it back, though i know full well that i'd be better off without it.
...& i keep making phone calls, so i won't be talking to myself.
& i thought i knew what i wanted, but now its all second guessing.
p.s.// i couldn't be alone with my thoughts any longer, but walking amoungst the living when you're barely breathing yourself is hopeless. walking in a graveyard seemed most appropriate. the sun was not quite setting and the graves cast monumental shadows over the sunken hallowed ground. erin & i wandered, & whistled obla-Di, obla-Da, life goes on brah, la la la la life goes on... | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| //a voyage to vt to rescue tucker from his clockwork castle.
met a curious man with a disarming manner and beguiling smile...he pulled a lighter out of his nose, and it was magical.
//came back, hands empty, heart full.
my vision, obscured. (i lost my contact lense while driving on the highway.)
tucker took the wheel from there,
erin slept in the backseat, only to awake as the sun was creeping over our hometown horizon.
j mascis laying a guitar-solo backdrop to an epic moment.
tomorrow: Slint at the Roxy.
i will be knee-deep in post rock euphoria! | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | crooked rain in my head | | Time: | 01:11 am | | Current Mood: | cold |
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| i write a text message, saturday morning
//dear[ ] its 4 in the morning & there are no clouds only stars & and a brilliant crescent moon oh how i wish it could be seen by someone other than me
// ...someone like you maybe. i don't deserve such beautiful sights while you are deprived of them.
that sums up my sleepless weekend
tomorrow may be
transcendent
or may be Chernobyl
or maybe,
not at all
...i'll keep you posted. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| chris amaral is a BUM
he needs to give me back that Yo La Tengo cd. mail it if he has to!
Painful is painful when i can't listen to it!
but anyways...
ha, yes.
right...uh, more on this later. bye kids! | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | this shit-hot Fat Possum Records sampler i bought recently | | Time: | 02:07 am | | Current Mood: | awake |
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| the night-time's full of vampires
and failures
which am i?
i'm out for blood, darling... | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
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